L.I.G. (Letting it go)

Tomorrow is the Phoenix Indie Craftorama, an event I put together over the past few months with the help of some new friends in the local craft scene. I worked really hard on every aspect to ensure its success: distributing fliers, press releases, etc. Everything except making Crafty Chica merchandise to sell!

I kept putting it off because I’ve had such a busy week. I figured if all else failed, I’d suck down a quad venti mocha and work all night tonight. I planned to sew at least three fabric collage purses, make a dozen of my resin picture bracelets, and even glitter some ceramic puppy banks.

I had the night mapped out, ready to go. First I had to write next week’s craft column about Mother’s Day projects. One of the ideas involved personalizing a family board game to promote mother/child bonding time. I wrote about not letting work get in the way of your kids, etc…

I sent it to my editor and dusted my hands, proud that I could FINALLY go in the studio and crank out some wares. Yay! Marathon crafting session! I walked into the kitchen and there is Maya, my 15-year-old, holding the very game I wrote about for my Mother’s Day column.

“Mom, can we play? I love this game!”

I threw my hands in the air, thinking about precious minutes of productivity clicking away. I shot back, “No! I can’t tonight, you know I have the craft show tomorrow! I haven’t even made one thing! Please don’t put this on me right now!”

She frowned. “All I want is to play one game. It’s Friday night. Geez, you don’t even have time for one game?”

I sighed, defeated. “Fine. Let’s play. Come one, let’s make it quick,” I replied.

“Forget it, Mom,” she said, before storming off to her room.

One thing about working from home in this kind of business is that there is no 9-to-5. It’s 24/7/365. It’s easy to become a machine and want to work hard and fast to keep up, and look like the perfect mom who juggles everything with a smile. It’s easy to assume everyone knows your deadlines, but they don’t. All they see is work, work, work.

Minutes later, I had to run an errand. I barely pulled out of the driveway when I realized how lame I was to Maya.

When I got home, I knocked on her door (locked). She opened it just a sliver and still had that mad-dog look in her eyes that makes me crumble to a million pieces inside (she gets it from her father!). I pouted and gave her my best “I’m sorry” puppy dog eyes.

“Will you play with me?” I pleaded, holding the game up to my face.

She couldn’t help but giggle. She opened the door and let me in. We sat on her bed, watched Laguna Beach DVDs and she totally creamed me at Connect 4.

Afterwards I walked in the art room – and turned off the lights.

Eh, forget making stuff for the event tomorrow. Patrick is providing the music entertainment, Maya and her friend are doing the make-and-takes, DeAngelo is sending good vibes. My family is giving up their Saturday to support me! That’s all I need. Yup, I’m just going to go and support my crafty homegirls (and boys) and have a good time at the show. I’m going to crash early tonight and get a good night’s sleep.

It feels so good to have come to that conclusion. Otherwise, I swear to God, I would have been making stuff until 5 a.m., and something would have made me cry tomorrow, because I would be so sleepy.

Sometimes it’s OK to let things go. “L.I.G.” as the kids tell me when I get worked up over something silly. Life goes on, the world will not crumble. At times like this I step back and look at the big picture.

I’d rather Maya have the memory of playing Connect 4, than me sitting in the art room, all by myself, working into the wee hours of the morning.

On that note, good night! Thank you for reading about my family dramz! You know you have some too! We all do, other wise we really would be machines!


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Love & light,


6 Responses

  1. I just love you so much!

    Yes, it’s so hard to have your kids understand your deadlines and responsibilities. And they have such a glorious way of catching you at your busiest moment. Initially, it feels like they are purposefully thwarting you, but then you realize they are actually (unknowingly) just forcing you to slow down.

    I was in the carpool lane at my daughter’s school last week – after a crazy day – and was on the phone trying to coordinate something. My son was in the back seat and kept yelling for me: “Mamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamama” Finally, I snapped: “WHAT!!!!!!!” Then he just looked at me and said, “I luf you.”

    ARGH! Stepping in right when I needed it.

    It is SO HARD, but you do what you can, and it sounds like you are doing everything right – even if it doesn’t always feel like it!

    Hugs! I hope the event is a smashing success and loads of fun for you and your family. 🙂

  2. Have a great time Kathy. You’re an awesome mom! I’m sure your event will be full of Sparkle!
    We love Glitter! Yes we do! We love Glitter! How ’bout YOU!!!

  3. Kathy, you are such a wonderful role model to moms and to artists. I really enjoy reading your blog! Keep it up and I am looking forward to reading your novel next year!

  4. Wise words to live by…boy can I relate to your story! Priorities can be challenging… but it always comes back to “family”, right? Thanks for the reminder, Kathy. I’m gonna go play with my kid right now!
    Glittery hugs,
    Laurie

  5. You are a creative person and will be an artist for the rest of your life.

    I know you are like the rest of us moms and see how fast our kids are growing. Someday there will be more time in your studio and more quiet than you’ll ever know. Trust me, there will be a time when you’re making art and you’ll wonder what Maya is doing and if she’ll ever call.

    You did the RIGHT THING, girlfriend. Mine is only 8, but I see the time flying fast and I feel the pressure to work/parent/make art etc. I also feel the pressure to hold onto my son for as long as I can.

    Hugs to you for being a GREAT mom!

    Jen

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